TWEEKERLAND – Meth Speed Bumps

Breaking the Ice

Well, I haven’t really been 100% sure what would be the best way to launch this project, Tweekerland, except that it would make sense to link right back to the source, KCI.org .

That’s where this all begins.

But Who Am I, and what is the purpose of this Blog?

What’s most important to know is this; I am an addict. I am an addict, that is the bigger picture here, and the one fact about me that is most pertinent to this project.

When I say “I am an addict, That is exactly what I mean. The reality about the NATURE of my addiction is that although I loved to get high on just about everything, Methamphetamine was THE drug that brought me to my knees. Methamphetamine (Which my crowd called everything from crank, to gack, to shit…. “Got any Shit?”) was the drug that seemed to rob me of my senses, of my potential, and of my ability to see the world as it really is… and enabled me to think the world was something it was not.  Mine.

And that is why I am here. Call me Penelope. I haven’t gotten high since January 18th, 2004; I started using sometime during 1975 or 1976 (One or the other, can’t really remember now.)  I survived addiction, and so far seem to have survived meth – but not without consequences. That, I’ll discuss some other time. That’s a story that took almost thirty years to write, so I’ll take some time rehashing ALL of it over time – What I think lead me down that path to begin with, what it’s been like, what it’s like now – I’ll even talk to some of my own loved ones to see how this has gone for those poor people. All in due time.

One of the main themes in recent months at KCI’s message board is the ongoing debate between users and non users (Also known as “Addicts,” and “Loved Ones.”)  This has been the topic of much controversy, heated disagreements, and has also given occasion for both groups to make excellent “Points” for their “Side.”

I think that’s an important issue - one that some days looks like “Addicts verses Loved Ones,” and occasionally we notice that the reality is that we’re really all in the same game, but not necessarily on opposing sides.

When is the addict responsible for his or her own behavior… and how much crap does a loved one really have to tolerate before they’ve had enough? What constitutes enough?  Is the behavior of an addict child different than that of an addict wife, husband, boyfriend, girlfriend? What is enabling, and what is helping?

Where is the line once it’s been crossed?

What about the addicts, though – clearly an addict is a sick person doing some really sick things. When do we cut the addict a little slack and try to understand the motives behind (Our) behavior? (I have to say “Our” behavior… I am an addict, after all.)

I have opinions on all of this, and because they are my opinions, they are not, therefore, “Correct” assessments of how each situation should be addressed, the role of every player in this sad story, or what “You” should do in your own life. I only have my own experience to draw upon, and that’s what I’m going to share here.

About KCI:  I hope you will visit that site when you are done here. There’s a lot to learn, Chat, and the information is not only for the meth addict. KCI is for anyone who needs to know about methamphetamine – students, addicts, and the people who love meth addicts…. or for those who hate them.

Darrell (AKA “KCImeth” for those who are familiar with him from the Message Board,) is the man who owns KCI, otherwise known as the ANTI METH SITE.  If you google “Meth,” KCI is on the first page.

I’d like to invite people to participate in the discussion here, and at KCI’s General Discussion Message Board and Chat Room.

Be back soon… until then,  thanks for reading.